Days have been kind to me lately but I dont know if Im happy about it or actually sad for it? No link to what I wanna blog but who cares...
Seeing people in a relationship makes me sad and makes me feel down. Be them straight, gay or bi, I just feel sad because one, I know I wont be in a relationship soon. And two, well, Im the least attractive guy and admit it, would you be attracted to me? Dont say "Hey, there will be people who will be attracted to you!!!" but hello, if there will, you will be the first one.
I know it looks like Im complaining but what am I suppose to do? Sit down and contemplate about things, but for how long? I know there are millions out there who are still single till a ripe old age, but I really feel intimidated when I see people younger then me having a relationship.
I'm a person who have a very low self esteem, that, I will gladly admit it, but, how do I fix it? & what ever advice you may throw me, it is easier said then done. I have acne & acne scars & to top it, Im dark & I have curfews... who wud wanna date me? Im sure guys wouldnt want to date someone whom they will only see for once a week or in two weeks (Believe me, been there, done that) & Im pretty sure, girls wouldnt like it either.
But then again, whom am I to judge my own fate or destiny in getting myself into a relationship? If people dont like me, its ok, but cant we at least be friends? Hahas... ooh well, different people, different taste, but Im in desperate need for real friends... & right now, Im just not sure if my friends are actually what I think they are???
Problems after problems, worries after worries, when will all of this ends? I just feel sad for myself for being such a total complaining bitch and such a cry baby who always makes small things into big ones... Who am? like seriously!!!
Yan danced till dawn at 6:38 AM
