" Great is the will of God. That Death knows no limit. Peace be upon those who has returned to his creator " -Assakhtian-
Recently, my family has been plague by many a death that will be remembered & surely hard to forget. From last year till this date, my grandaunt, grandfather, granduncle, uncle and just recently, my cousin has returned to the Lord.
What I truly learned today (which last time, I was skeptic) is that death may knock at our door at anytime & of course at any age. The youngest to go back to the Lord is my cousin, P. age 20+. Taken by Azrael in a freak-accident.
How devastated were his parents whom rely on him as he is their only son. The tears of his mother & aching of his father, the despair of his sisters can never be repaid for this soul so pure and innocent.
I am not close to him, but I know him. A handsome young man he is and a very good son, he helped his sister & mother around the house, a very quiet person. Also a fresh-graduate working very hard to provide food for his family.
Today, my perfumed-necklace smelled incredibly strong, the smell struck all the way up to my brain(I was suffocated by it). The necklace is a small bottle filled with 7small moon & bloodstone poured with rose-essence. Usually, the smell will just be faint but today it is so strong(& im sure tat it is corked very thightly), is it a sign that i didnt realise till later but carrying on.
When all this happened, we will ask God, is this fair? Many future lies ahead and he just lie on YOUR lap suddenly! But we as humans must always remember that we have no control over death, but it is not over, it is just a begginning.
Im sorry I cant continue... but do heed this words.
"When a door closes, another will open."
Yan danced till dawn at 5:55 AM
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
This is so fucking irritating!!! I lost my anklet!!! God!!!
Its my favorite la!!! I brought it from perth as a memory of the trip. Furthermore it has my name, YAN on it with 6 black-blessing beads!!!
Anyone who sees it, PLEASE return it to me...you will have no idea how much I will be gratefull to ya!!!
And till then, I'll make a new one in replacement. My ankle feel uncomfortable without the presence of its thight "string"
Yan danced till dawn at 6:03 AM
If only _ knows!
If only _ knows.
If only _ knows, then my dreams wont be just a dream.
If only _ knows, then love has finally proven itself to be true.
If only _ knows, then only will I be able to sleep peacefully in replace of those restless nights.
If only _ knows, then will I no longer be lonely in path thats been tread.
If only _ knows, then the moon will no longer spend its night in solitude.
If only _ knows, then water thats drunk will be as sweet as wine.
If only _ knows, then the breast will expand and I will no longer be afraid.
If only _ knows...
As'sakhtian Arwen Orwens
Yan danced till dawn at 11:11 AM
OMG!!! I tink Im obssessed or something!! Or is it just likes? Hmm....
- I tink I'm into football(rugby) especially when it is the AFL in Australia. I noe that I hate sports and I am even weak at it but this one, I cant deny saying that I love it so much!!!
- I tink I like the german language!! Ich(I) just want to learn Deutsh(German) and just in Deutsh to menschen(ppl).
- I tink I also like Koreans... I like their culture. Very vibrant. I like their dramas too which includes "Jewel in The Palace" & "Hwag Jini"
- This, I cant deny either. I am obssessed in getting fairer again!!! I wan to fit-in in my family colour!!! My family are fair & I am the only one who is dark. Thus, I stray away from the eyes of camera!!!
- I tink my life of living is getting more expensive!!! I noe that I cant afford expensive goods but I will shuned away from cheap goods and instead I will look for a more expensive items!!! Hais..
So you tell me!!! What should I do???
Yan danced till dawn at 6:10 AM
I AM TRUELY SORRY BUT I WONT BE GIVING ANY ADVISE IN THIS BLOG!!!
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Today was.....a I don noe how to explain. M.J. was really mad with our class... but I wont be posting it here because I noe that there will be somebody with the name freewill will be prying and giv this info to M.J.
But the thing that I want to stress here is friendship.
What good is there if you say to somebody that you are a friend to them but you never honour your word? The ans: A COWARD!!!
A. was right. You tell ppl that you are a good friend to them but the moment when they are in trouble or when they need us most, we back ourself up and refuse to stand by them.
You wanna noe who tat person is? well its me. How dare I call myself a true friend to somebody but never be there wen they need it. I always think of myself that I am a good person, a saint who is always willing to listen to ppls trouble and will always be there for my friends, but it turns out wrong!!!
I am exactly the opposite... I nevr cared! I nevr even bothered! All along I am only thinking about myself!!! I only cared about getting my skin-colour white and nothing else!!! Even here I am ranting about myself!!! How selfish can that be?!?!
I noe that A. is not scolding me or anything, in fact he is only venting his anger but his words makes me ponder over and over again. I can only smile meekly and accept the truth from him. There he is standing there waiting for his friends to say something but all, Especially me, keep mumed except for B..
Perhaps I am not that a great friend!!! I guess I want to stay away from my friends because I know that I will back up or run away from responsibility of protecting or helping or worse being there for a friend!!! I'm sorry but I guess, I hav to change for the worse!!!
Yan danced till dawn at 4:42 AM
