I have this idea, taken from craftywytch. I wanna have a 100-Day-Challenge. Starting from 1st July onwards.
The challenge will be in pushing & I mean forcing myself to study, pray, meditate, get close to nature & play in a schedulized manner. This will exclude school activities, friends activities & family activities (well, atleast I can use these as my play-time)
The aim is to get closer to god & mother-nature. The most important is to study hard for a possible brighter future(the one that I have always dreamt about). Also to get myself healty in the mind & teach me to schedule things.
I know that this will be hard but I really nid to do this as I am really desperate to pass my O-levels & also learn my craft & at the same time make my mum happy in knowing my own religion(well, at least its good for me). This time, only me can help myself then maybe, God can budge-in(YOU hear that GOD!!!).
Pray ppl, pray, hope I can achieve this moment of importance in my life, & in return, I'll always pray for you (huh! Like I never like tat).
Yan danced till dawn at 8:11 AM
I dont even know what I am doing these days!!! All I want to do is sleep, relax & do nothing at all!!! God!!! Am I slacking again??? Hope not...but it is obvious, aint it?
I said that I wanna study & meditate but all I ended up doing is pray & read my newly bought book (Wicca). All I wanna do is hide from others. I dont even want to even go out & play let alone been invited out (I dont hear any invitation).
My guess is that all my friends are studying & having the fun of their life. Good job guys!!! Hope U'll pass ur exams.
Me? I think my life will change forever. I am sober and it is not as though I am hating it, in fact, I liked it & I wanna it to remain that way!!! Peace within my own world without the peace of outside gain.
Do mind me!!! I have no idea what I am talking about. Well its not as though anyone is gonna read this!!!
Yan danced till dawn at 9:08 PM
