Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Hais.... Time flies, new problems arrived & old problems are solved. However not all old problems may be solved, some are there to stay.
I feel frustrated on myself (wonder if that is a wrong use of words?). I either voluntarily get myself in trouble or IT just come to me voluntarily. I know that my troubles are not that worse compared to the children of the world; some are hungry, orphaned, abandoned, tortured, etc. But.........
I know what kind of advice to be use as to solve my problems but I dont take advice really well. It just pissed me off, its as though my troubles are here to stay. And no Freewill, it has nothing to do with my family!!!
If only I know who you are, I would tell you all my troubles & problems for you to solve (and not to spread). Right now, I need my friends & family, but I feel that, that is not enough. I need something more.
Mid-yr is coming down fast & not to mention O-levels. I have no motivation to study. Seeing E. , D. , evryone studying makes me envy of them but I dont have their will to put up with this rubbish (well, maybe not entirely). I sleep, I eat, I slack. Its as though all facts & senses are knocked out of me.
I dont have the will to study. The winds refuse to obey me. I eat alot. Argh!!! I swear if these are signs of stress, I will kill myself & get myself to oblivion!!!
Yan danced till dawn at 7:41 AM
