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Monday, February 23, 2009

Word of advise: This is only my personal opinion & I have no intention to upset, discriminate or ostracized anyone.
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" I will kill anybody who is part of my family, if he or she has a tattoo! ", said my late father (may the lord have mercy on his soul).

This morning in class, we had a debate on tattoo and I personally have nothing against tattoo. I know that tattoo is a form of body art but even if it means losing someone I love, I, myself will not get a tattoo.

From young, I have been taught to not like tattoo. It has been a very strict rule that is imposed within our family. In my own opinion, tattoo has and will always be associated with gangster, rebels, etc. Especially, those chinese or malay or indian who has lots of it, big patches on their body!!!

But if you are someone which fits this category, and you come out to me & chat and be nice with me, I will not hesitate to talk with you back because I like conversation (not really, I only like to listen & debate back! Hahas). Even though of that, I will feel very uncomfortable!!! (but I promise I wont ostrasize you)

But if you are the one who has tattoos to commomerate your lost loved ones or such, then, the more I will have nothing against you but just a word of advise, You could do other things to commomerate such.

I am lucky to be born in this century where ppl are open-minded to such things & that made my mind at ease abit but if you ask me to put on a tattoo, I am so sorry but I have to decline (god knows wat that word means, Hahas).

If my sons or daughters put on tattoos, I will not hesitate to use a knife to scrape the tattoos off or give them a lazer-treatment that will make them suffer. But if it is my spouse, I will have no regret if you do hav tattoos (old one that is), but I will encourage them not to put anymore and hopefully not to teach our kids to do such things.

Here are some reasons on why I am hesitant or somehow dislike tattoos:

IT IS AGAINTS my religion, & my family rules.
Some tattoos bearer associate themselves with gangster (FYI, I hate gangster).
Yes, tattoos may look nice on your skin when you're young, but it wont look that nice when you grow old.
If not taken properly (actually, even if you did) , you will get infected by god knows what disease.
It is taboo in MANY countries & communities.
If you put a tattoo of your bf or gf's name, what will happen if they ditch you? wouldnt the name will be like rubbing salt to your wound?

But seriously, if you do have a tattoo now, I will not ostrasize you like anything, I will be your friend unless you proof other wise. Peace y'all

Yan danced till dawn at 5:19 AM

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Tired, Bored, Flabeghasted, Exhausted, and all the the words that shares the same "meaning".............

I hav no idea to what I am doing to my life rite now!!! I'm slacking in my studies and I oni want to sleep (funny tat Im not asleep yet)...........................

2moro I got a stupid chem quiz & I havent revised on anything yet!!! God!!!

Yan danced till dawn at 8:18 AM

Monday, February 16, 2009

Argh!!! I love my blog skin now!!! Thank you winnie!!! hahas!!! for those of you who don agree wit me...................erm...................WHO CARES!!!

Yan danced till dawn at 6:35 AM

Thursday, February 12, 2009

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYBODY!

Valentine's Day is the commemoration of Saint Valentine. The story of a saint who wrote a letter to his companion behind the bars. The story of his execution for helping the christians in the pagan-roman days.

But what is the real meaning behind valentines day today? The ans is all abou L.O.V.E. = Love. We celebrate it with our beloved bf & gf. But don put your hopes down just yet for those of you who have no companions(bf / gf), you can still celebrate it with your families & frens.

Like I always said, Love knows no boundaries, if sky is the limit, then there will be no stars(wat am I talking about!?!) What I'm trying to say is tat, you may be gay or les to be in love, you may be black or white, you may be older or younger; love transcends us all!!!

What is love? This qns has been asked thousands of generation before us & it will continue to be ask after. Even I ask such things. But the ans actually depends on what you are actually asking for? You may ask for the love of ur family, or you may ask for the love of ur frens, or you may ask for true love.

Now, I will ask what will love do to me? Is it real or just a fantasy? And will I able to have it? There are just millions more to ask, alas, I have to be oblivious to it because of my "condition". If I were to hav my true love, will it sweep me off my feet to the realm of fantasy and hope to remain there forever?

But enough about me!!! You must have a very pleasant Valentine! I Hope & wish &... pray that on this day, you my friends will find your true love & find the ans to your qns.

Again, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! to you all!!!

Yours Heart-tyly, As'sakhtian Arwen Orwens. ;)

Yan danced till dawn at 5:09 AM

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

I seriously hav no idea on why I want to post this.

I want to be a witch but I dont want to be seen as a witch-wannabe! You might ask isnt a witch for female and male is a wizard? Half true. Those ppl who are descended down by a witch, they will be a witch regardless of their gender. Those ppl who are descended down by a wizard, the male will be called a wizard while the female will be a witch.

Back to what I wanna say,

I don wan to be seen as a witch-wannabe but as a real witch. But I also don wan to be called a witch literaly but merely as a wise-person in dealing with reality/supernatural/cures ... so, I hav a plan.

First: I wan to collect information on demons or ghost or spirits that my culture or race believes in. Added by other culture's superstitions and belief on the supernatural. This is so tat my children will noe wat demon they are dealing with and how to guard against them.
Second: I will learn about herbology. I will learn on wat are the medicinal properties of a plant, how do I use them, how do I plant and take care of them, how to find them in deserted places? My purpose in this is so that, I noe wat plant do I use to cure a certain illness and wat plant do I use for aromatherapy to calm the different emotions and wat plant are healthy to be use in cooking.
Third: I will take a course in pyscology. This I will achieve wen I get to poly. I want to learn and understand the human emotion or wat they are thinking about. I want to read whether they are lying or not, are they hiding secrets, do they want to be help?

By combining all these, I can become a Great Witch. I can noe wen or how to help ppl and have the rest such as herbs, knowledge of the supernatural as backup. Then maybe, if my faith is strong, I will learnt on how to do exorcism, banishing and commanding of spirits and get afew supernatural abilities for myself.

All these infomation will be collected and written down in a book. This book will then be made as a family heirloom and will be pass-down to my chosen heir and will pass-down till the end-of-time.
But wats my purpose? My purpose is because I don wan these knowledge to die down with us. I hav a grandfather who is a massager, even ppl with broken bones, he can cure or straighten the bones back. I hav a granduncle who can see and commune with spirits. I hav a grandaunty who can or knows on how to cure babies and adults in something that we cant do. And it is about time tat they bring down these knowledge to me so tat I may passed it down to my generation to come.

Yan danced till dawn at 2:44 AM

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Death . . .

This morning, I heard the most horrible of news. My uncle (obek)(May god show mercy on him always), passed away. And to add the misery futher, my friend S.'s grandmother(May god show mercy on her always) passed away yesterday too.

Death is a part of life. It may sound bad but we must be brave in facing it all. When a door closes, a new one will open, this tells us tat death is never the end. When we die, we will hav a new life, a life with god. And for those who are still living, wen our love ones are gone, a new life begins and it comes in many ways.

Such as a celebration of a new-born baby in our mist. A new life for us all. And maybe the door of our hearts will open its way to God again.

Do note tat this post is not only for you to read. But also a reminder for you AND me, tat death is enevitable and it is a part of life.

"Humans may plan their lives but, it is God who makes it happen."

Yan danced till dawn at 5:48 AM

Thursday, February 5, 2009

What I live for? What do you live for?

Todays english lesson was an interesting one. So I thought I would share it with you.

I live for Life.
I love to see newborn babies that brings joy to their parents and yet, fear to their siblings that might think that the love of their parents would be divided.
I like to see elderly people in the park, feeding the birds and seeing those elderly people who really appreciate life.
I love to see the leaves falling from the trees to give way for the new leaves.
And I love to see the people of many community givving alms and charity to the poor.
These is life and that is what I live for.

So what do you live for? Is it love? Is it happiness? or is it for those people who strive you to continue? No one in this world can say that they live for nothing- for nothing is something!(Hahas) You may be the most sober of person but there will surely be one thing that you live for.

I like to see the moons radiant light in the night sky. I like to feel the wind blowing in every part of my body. I like to see the patterns of raindrop during rainy-days. All these are my what I live for. From the small chidren to the golden aged, from my fears to my greatest joy. I live for all this and no one can take them away from me.

So, What do you live for?

Yan danced till dawn at 6:22 AM

Monday, February 2, 2009

In this time and in this place,
I cut my hands, that blood will flow.
As you will read, for I will swear;
That...

I will collect at least $13 every week to buy things that I wanna own.
To study hard and past my test.
To be oblivious to the word "love".
To change myself to be a "Witch" and semi-"Vampire"(Hahas).
To finish 5 more Anne Rice's novels.
To hold all eight sabbats in mind.
To be sarcastic as Ms J.

And in this words, I type,
For you to see and for me to remember.
Let it be true, for you are my witnesses,
For if it is not achieve, let it called;
The lies of ember!

Yan danced till dawn at 6:20 AM