My Olde memories are back . . . not that I hate it because something bad happened but it is good. And precisely that it is good that it hurt me soo much. I cant sleep the whole of yesterday night remembering the time when I am so foolishly _ _ - _ _ _ _!!!
The face, the hair, the origin, the height, the attitude & the change of the attitude. It is so damn clear!!! For four years, I've tried to clear these vision, these memories of _ _ _!!! And it just came back to my head in snap of a finger...
If you know who you are, its not that I dont enjoy them but it is the fact that you're not here to be with. But if you despise it, then I appologise. Or just forget about it...
It shouldnt happen, and it shouldnt surface!!! I've never meant to fantasies but I never want to forget. Day by day, I regreted for not giving the letter, for at least I'll know the outcome but now, my feelings is not made known & thus I regreted!!!
Ever since, I've sworn not to like anybody else & I manage it, I was free, I was leased of the burden but not until the darn cupid place it back on my shoulder . . . And for the fact that I am waiting, I will hate myself for liking _ _ _ _ _ _ and will regret it as soon as I leave this school.
Now, I am only forcing myself to like but never the outcome . . . but whatever it is, I will just except it, appologise & leave. And a word or two, at least these never hurt YOU in anyway!!!
Yan danced till dawn at 4:46 AM
