• I lost a friend whom I made her mad (as in angry!!! not crazy!!!). I thought not telling is better but I was soooo wrong!!! I'm sorry & I will not do it again!!! I will tell you everything from now on!!! (except of going to the toilet!!!)
• I work in a job that is sooo not for me!!! I slacked!!! I can't get customers!!! which results to a low pay (Very low pay!!!)
• The low pay made my parents mad (again angry!!!). But it is their fault for noe listening to me carefully!!! Then they start accusing me of not considering or asking properly. They rant at me and call me names that I hate most and will probably stuck in my head for a very very long time!!!
• Because of my parents, I give them the cold shoulder!!! why? because I'm mad!!! (this time, as in crazy!!!). I am so obssesive in the names that they call me, that I took it as a life title for myself!!! I lock myself in my room, to avoid them!!! Eat very little or just cook for myself & not eating wat my mum cook.
• My relationship with my family is broken, now I feel uneasy around them...I dare not ask for anything from them...I dare not talk to them unless spoken to...I dare not eat with them which results in me eating by myself...& I dont like being around them!!!
• I made my 2 trustee friends guilty for me to reveal my darkest secrets (which I thought they are...). Gals I have no regrets in telling, hope u keep it till death!!!
• I was worried sick for my results. Which turn out fine!!!

...Also after this bad times, there are good times in between...

• In my new job, I found good friends...love them lots!!!
• I brought 3 novels about vampires which cheer me up in my room.
• I pass my Ns!!! yes!!!

...As you can see, my joy is not that much...I know that I shouldnt complain because there are others who has it worse... I'm sorry if this post makes you sick but I nid to tell someone or make my problems known!!!
But what ever it is, just fuck up and go back!!! No one ask you to read it anyways...

ps. Merry Christmas!!! God bless you all!!! & Happy New Year!!!